Have you ever gone through a chunk of your life where things are just sort of crummy for a while? That describes large periods of my life over the last five years or so. Things could have been worse, for sure, and I tried to keep my humor throughout everything, but that doesn’t change the fact that life was stressful for a while.
Since moving to California, however, things have been pretty awesome. My husband is happy. I’m happy. Our animals are happy. We like our new apartment. We like our new city. My husband likes his job. All in all, things are great and it’s . . . weird.
It can be difficult to accept being happy, can’t it? It’s funny, in a sick kind of way. I really enjoy being this happy, but a part of me feels like I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop. “Things can’t always be this good, can they?” My traitorous brain asks. “When is the next bad thing going to happen?” Obviously, I don’t want to think like that. I’m doing my best to drown out that negative voice and to accept being happy. It’s a work in progress.
In the meantime, things are going well. In March we saw visits from two different sets of friends. We also got to spend time with my husband’s family, which was part of the point of moving to California. So all of that was fun.
I never heard back definitively about that city job I interviewed for, but it’s safe to assume at this point that I didn’t get it. After the rather strange interview, I feel okay about that. The husband and I recently had a conversation about my job situation. We ultimately agreed that I should focus on writing/publishing and not worry about getting a traditional job. This was mostly his idea. I feel a little weird about not contributing financially to the family (for now), but I’m happy to have the opportunity to try to make something out of my writing.
After a pep talk from a friend, there has been movement not only in my writing but in the publishing aspect as well. I don’t have anything to report on that yet but hope to in my monthly wrap-up for April.
In March I also did more social stuff, which continues to go well. I’ve already met one person who has started to become a friend and there are others who I could see becoming friends eventually as well. The funny thing is, I still feel absolutely no pressure in this area of my life. I haven’t been feeling lonely or bored or depressed. I’ve just been enjoying the social interaction I’ve been getting and that feels like enough for now.
In a nutshell, I'm saying that everything is currently coming up roses. If you're stopping by to read, why don't you tell me how March 2014 went for you?